2.01.2008

I'll Give God Forever

Today as I was driving, I turned on my new CD of the Church musical "Savior of the World." You may remember Natalie mentioning it [she's very involved with our Stake's production]. She has had the soundtrack in her car for some time and I wanted my own. The CDs arrived yesterday -- what a gift. Already there have been so many 'aha' moments for me and I'm only halfway through the first CD.

You know, as I reflect, I realize that I know how much our Heavenly Father loves us and I know that His hand is in each of our lives and that He wants only what is good and right for us. This is not news to me. But I have no patience. I don't want to wait for anything. So when I pray, in my weak, wimpy way, I am expecting [and probably demanding] immediate answers and results and change. [I also know this is the wrong way to do things -- but I keep doing it. Can you relate?]

Today as I listened to the first CD, I heard these words [sung by the actress portraying Elisabeth]:

"I'll give God forever to make me what I am.
Give my plans and give my dreams,
Give up all my fretful schemes.
I'll give God this moment to fill my soul with cheer --
I'll give Him forevermore
And that will keep Him near.
. . .I'll give God forever and let Him lead me on."

Tears? For sure. Feelings of answers and revelation? Definitely. The Spirit? An outpouring. The knowledge that He does know me, He does hear me, and He does love me was clearer than ever before.

And a soft, sweet reminder that God is building a palace, not a shack. He needs time to work with someone like me. Lots of time. And I need to give Him that time.

7 comments:

Jori said...

I love this music so much! Great thoughts as always. It's hard to calm down and realize everything will be alright. You are the best Jan!

Melissa said...

I might have to invest in this CD, sounds inspiring!

100 Percent Cottam said...

i love love love that song!!! it's the best. i love it when zacharias sings back - "i'll give God forever - but not do do MY will." such a great reminder. but it's "the lord is my shepherd" that really gets me. amazing song!!!

Kristi said...

That's awesome! Thank you for sharing your thoughts, Jan. I'm thinking I really need to get these CDs. The music sounds like it is beautiful!

hoLLy said...

i've gotta check this music out. it sounds awesome!

Wendy said...

These are things you hear all the time, but when it's said or sung a way that touches you, it's always so profound. I love having reminders of this!

Emily said...

Well said. The CD sounds wonderful.